✖random

=) going to hat-yai tomorrow. 4a.m somethings at the morning will start our journey.
well, i know somebody thinks that i'm crazy. so early... LOL.
and actually i'm very worry for this too. about H1N1, war and anthing else??? G... H... O... S... T...
haih. CHOIII~ obviously, i had scared by my friend in school. haha.
anywhere, god bless us yea. ^^ )=
(don't sms me tomorrow and sunday, or else will bankrupt) LMAO.

usually, my brain always think somethings nonsense and useless stuff.

today, i had promise myself that i won't think too much from now on.

i don't know i can done it or not but i just know i will try my best to do it. fighting...

❤agneS

✖my life sucksss

很久没看我用华语写部落格了吧？或者也可以说从来没看过。。。对吗？
好吧，现在只想用华语来抒发我藏在心里的一大堆东东。可能会让我好一些。但愿。。。

其实，我一直都问自己我们努力的生活到底为了什么？钱？亲情？友情？爱情？还是自己？
每次我问我自己时，我只会回答：当然是自己啊！
可是，再问回自己为什么要为自己生活时？顿然的，我的心情就会完全down的谷底。
有智慧的，你们一定觉得我这种想法很幼稚，愚蠢吧？或者是我想太多？
好。。。我承认。我很会想，头脑整天想有的没的，对吧？可是我想问你们：
你们生活是为了什么？可以告诉我答案吗？一个超有逻辑的答案，好吗？

我。。。好累！到底什么是钱？亲情？友情？爱情？
钱？有一次曾听过别人说：钱很重要。没钱活着也没意思，因为会很辛苦，不如死掉算了。
自己想了想。这有道理吗？钱真得这么重要？而我也只明白，没钱什么也很难办到。
更听过被人说过，亲情比钱重要。说了也对，亲情能时时刻刻的帮你，鼓励你。而钱？
能帮什么？勒索别人然后自己得到利益？或者有些会不顾家人的安全，想尽办法拿到钱。
那“亲情比钱重要”，这代表什么？一句让人用来让人开完笑的比喻吗？这，好笑吗？才怪！

友情又是什么？“出外靠朋友”，的确大家都做到这点。
我呢。。。总觉得自己是一位不负责任的人？请问：我的朋友，你们认同吗？
朋友？我的存在有让你们觉得任何的不爽吗？有的话请你们老实说，我绝不会生气。勾勾手~
真心的说，有时你们全部到跑到一边谈天时，剩我一个人时坐在那里。。。
我都以功课来让自己忙碌，不让自己想太多。可是。。。
我，突然觉得自己好寂寞。你们有时问起为什么不跟你们一起聊天，我也只用了一些借口敷衍。
其实，我不是不想自动去找你们而是。。。怕的是如果你们聊到一半，我插了进来，
你们真的不会嫌我烦或者是嫌我很碍手碍脚吗？其实被动比自动好吧？
有时，我也觉得自己根本不适合当你们的朋友。而我的有些朋友，你们在利用我吗？
如果是的话，这不算朋友，好吗？朋友是必须真心对待的，一起出去玩，
有福同享，有难同当，难道不是吗？我错了吗？
我只想说：不要因为一个东西或一个人，就想靠近我，我没用时，就抛到一边。
我绝对不是你们的玩具！知道吗？！！！像这样的朋友，不要也罢！

爱情？对父母来讲，像我们这种所谓的什么叛逆时期的学生，不适合这个东西。可是这我们偏偏都会好奇的去尝试吧？
如果现在有了爱情，而且真心的，这对我们更好的是吗？每个人有不同的意见吧？？？
生活为什么要为了自己？我，不懂；而你，懂吗？

最近，我成绩也越来越差。每天只想用功读书，可是都办不到。这叫做三分钟热度？
看着朋友的成绩越来越好，而我呢？不知如何怎样办好。咳。。。
我不嫉妒，而是。。。为什么我越来越差，我真的太好玩或太笨了吗？我必须更认真,更用功吗？

sincerely, i had convinced myself that it was okay to cheer up.
stick with status quo, don't think too much. no drama.
but i scare my reasons aren't reason, they're excusses.
all i'm doing is hidding from the truth, and the truth is...
i'm scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment.
my world will just going to come carshing down, and I...
i don't know whether if i can survive or not...
somebody help me to escape from this problem? all pressure come over me now.
I can't bear so much!i'm tired, i'm totally tired, i'm thoroughly tired!
i just wanna to be myself, absence of any affectation or pretense. but, can i?
my life is extremely sucksss. i hate myself now! T__T

❤agneS

✖update

well well well... long time no update? that's not my "lazy worm" fault.
is the sucks computer. why always going crazy recently? made me so irrtated!

okay, about the last saturday had anything happened?
"changed the date to 17, actually i just write it today, 20/4"
just went to school for attending gerko activities. nothing special and boring too.

paint the dirty wall was the funniest things? kept paint and said nonsense with the seniors.
have one always said “叫你妈妈来见我”或“你被踢出学校了”. just can say, are she crazy? xD
then went to friend's house see them do their souvenirs, i think i had helped them also. hehe.
watched jennifer's body. so horrible and ...... sucks? the word was too rude for us?





that's not suit for us to watch.
haih. won't watch this type movie anymore.
until when i grow up just make another decision.





went to tuition then went to kedah the next. woohoo~ so miss my relatives at there.
it had a big rain that time. i'm so worry cause the rain can't let you see the things outside properly.
luckily, that's no any rain at highway there. phew~ god bless us. thanks...
reached there, alor setar and fetched more two relatives. car wanted to explode already! haha.
too many people. heard their conversation also let me laugh until dizzy...
went home at here and they chat until 4a.m. i went to sleep at 12a.m.
not like them, so strong... no need rest also can laugh until morning.

now, i knew what LMAO means?
is LAUGH MY ASS OUT. haha. why i so stupid?
*will continue post my next post soon. ^^

❤agnes

✖terribleness

today our class went to take part in the choral speaking competition.

went there with a nervous feeling and back with a sad feeling.
cause we had LOSE it. we practices everyday but we didn't take it seriously.
seems like always crazy and just happy because we no need to study.
we always talked and actually we can't talked, we must think more ideas to make it interesting.
so, i had regret. but nothing can change now. the results are sure already.
honestly, we had tried it. really done our best. agree?
friends, cheer up! be more harworking and serious next time! don't sad, okay???

❤agneS

✖walk for sight

woke up on the morning at 3.26a.m. very early right?
that's because i had slept at 9 somethings yesterday. i need to grab some shut-eye.
hehe. and i just came back from a activity that is "walk for sight."
arrived the activity venue and took this picture below... =)




took it about 6a.m. somethings...
just felt it was beautiful and just simply took it.
err... i'm not lame for tooking this, is i appreciated it.

just be a helper at the registeration counter with my friends. keep chating there...
then i saw a girl very white and i'm admire her. cause i am very black. ><



took it at 7.00a.m. somethings again...
this time i really felt bored and hot. grr!






then, the activity started. is about 3.8km, if i'm not wrong. very far...
not really fun for me and i felt that it was kinda bored and our club not enough active.
haih. i wasn't luck in lucky draw too. it was a tired morning and i'm more black then before! T.T
the picture i took with some friends:

Me (why look like still have baby fat?), Ling Jie, Jin Xing and Sophie.

❤agneS

✖without evildoing

W-E-L-L, finally i had a day to relax and just went to school for attending school activities.
=) a day without worries, trouble or any useless anger.
went to KRS then going wild at there. of course, we were scolded by our seniors too. hehe.
went to LEO for cooking food - spaghetti. i thinked it was quite nice. *^_^
then, washed toilet. actually, it was funny and it wasn't smelly. okay?*>_^





my friend helped me bought this spectacles just now.
just felt that the reflection from the optic is very strong.
and it have many colours. very colourful... lol.
err... does it suit me?





❤agneS

✖irritated

this week school days were totally made me so irritated!
because of the only three stuff. arghh...
wish i won't involve in this three crazy stuff again!

=) going trouble with all the practices for choral speaking.
about everyday we were practices for it and we all are tired.
stand there and blaH blaH blaH, then do some "body language".
yup. i know that sometimes we are happy and high but for me...
made me angry is more than made me happy. >.<

=) doing anti- dadah project and it must hand in on next monday.

everyday sleep late and woke early, my dark pouches are more dark than before.

my eyes glazed over from lack of sleep. will die. >.<

=) going crazy for letting A teacher for just sign A document.

about three days before always walked in to the office for finding teacher.

unfortunately, that teacher had absent whole week school days.

then i just keep find another teacher sign and wanna pass to the teacher in charge.

the teacher incharge was going to have a meeting that time and tried to ignore me.

i asked her non- stop then she just said O_K_A_Y. damn hurried! >.<

❤agneS

✖QB with family

went to QueensBay yesterday for celebrated my dad's birthday.
just simply had a dinner in a restaurant. just wanna say kim gary again. Zzz...
bought a grammar book at popular. unfortunately, let my mum nagging me cause the price.
but my dad aprove me bought this book. *phew~* mum, you lose! hehe.





i'm going to read through YOU word by word.
please be careful!
what a difficult book to read through?! *sobs*




next, when i want go to paid at counter. I was suprise...
a girl that aged between 4 to 5 years old is singing "sorry sorry sorry sorry..."
WTH?! this song really so popular no matter for young or old?!
when i went to toilet, i heard a little girl said "做么会有屎的，妈妈我要洗屁股"。
the two girls i had met yesterday really damn cute. oh god~ wanna fall in a faint.

p.s.//can't wait for going queensbay with friends next time. i want shopping please! haha.

❤agnes

✖april fool's day

H-A-P-P-Y is the best things for everybody. agree?
put down anythings that make you sad and upset now.
high yourself no matter will going imageless or not.
just go to make someone crazy and let yourself happy.
they will not angry cause it was april fools' day!
Lated post and lated wishes, happy april's fool!




❤agneS